“One day everything will make perfect sense so for now laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears and keep reminding yourself everything Happens for a reason “
Hi guys, sorry for the lack of posts lately ! Honestly when I said I was going to take a break , I didn’t expect to stop posting however whilst on this break something I would call a miracle happened and for three months I have been pretty busy here growing our little baby!
Wow yes I am pregnant and we have a very healthy active little jumping, waving and kicking little baby ! who is measuring a week ahead of schedule which can only mean he has his fathers genes and will be a very big baby :) Yay me :)
we are expecting baby’s arrival in July and we are beyond excited and happy! Words can not describe how I feel, this whole experience still feel like a dream!
Thankfully it is not a dream and it is now my reality, I keep watching and waiting for me belly to grow, for me to get sick and have all the side effects that come along with the dreaded morning sickness yet I am still waiting and I think I’m going to say I got out of that one !
I have had a very nice little baby growing away inside me that hasn’t Made me feel sick , I have had the complete opposite I finally feel healthy and some days the best I have felt in a long time ! It’s like my body has connected and it’s finally done the right thing! My hormones have balanced and I feel amazing , maybe it’s all a mind game but if this is what pregnancy feels like .. line me up to be pregnant forever !
I will post more about how and when I found out I was pregnant and tests and appointment that followed ! And the scare we had that nearly broke me!
We stayed pretty quiet with this baby news as we where so scared of what could happen, we where trying to take one day at a time , hey we still are but for now I feel like I can finally breath again!
One day you will look back in awe at everything that happens In your life , and all the people that came in to it . Everything and everyone has brought you to where you are today. Everything and everyone in your life has taught you something. I would not change the journey I have been on or this experience. It is what has shaped me, it is what has transformed me to be the person I am today. With out the bad , rough, tough emotional roller coaster I would not be standing here today as brave and as strong as I am ! I wouldn’t have Walked the path that I have walked With out experiencing the loss and tough times infertility deals women and couples I wouldn’t have the compassion and empathy for how others feel. I wouldn’t be speaking up and raising awerness or being that voice for others. With out having all these challenges and set backs along my journey I wouldn’t be half the person I am today or where I am today ! I wouldn’t feel the way that I feel now which is truely blessed and full with so much love. I am very blessed and will never take it for granted that I am carrying my baby. A baby is the most beautiful thing in the would and I have never felt a love like this!
I have so much love and gratitude for my husband as I believe our little miracle would not have been here I’f I hadn’t had his up most support through this entire process he has been my rock through all good and bad ! I changed my whole entire life style and mind set to get to where we are today but I couldn’t have done it with out his love support and guidance .
John has always backed my decisions 100% and I believe he always will! he is the reason I was able to achieve my goals! With out John , family and friends I could not have got through this journey. It’s a tough one but I am living proof that their is always light at the end of the tunnel , Never give up on hope, somethings in life are worth fighting for and this has been my biggest fight yet !
Doctors and specialists were always very quick to tell me the worst case and that we wouldn’t conceive however I didn’t yet accept this and I new it was up to me and that yes it was my body that I needed to work on and this year and the years before have been about that and just that , getting myself to a place where I could conceive and carry my baby!
I am beyond excited for my next trimester and the whole experience, getting to 12 weeks is a huge milestone in itself, hearing our baby’s heart beat was the most amazing thing I have ever witnessed and experienced in my life I have never felt so complete in all my life, I can not wait to see the baby John and I have created, we love it more then life itself and I can’t wait for John to be a dad, he was born ready he already is ready and always will be the best dad to our child
Took awhile for my hcg levels to rise to get a really strong positive test :)
Our first scan, what we saw that gave us hope :)
Baby Luxton at 6 weeks
Oh hey Baby !! 12 weeks scan :) so in love