So here it is, I have this condition that I'm trying to come to terms with, understand and piece together any information I possibly can. If anyone has or is going through this experience I want you to know you do have a voice, ask those questions you need toask, seek out the best doctors and specialists for you! It is you that is on your journey no one else . Do what is right for you and treat yourself accordingly!
After not knowing for so long it was a huge relief to know that there was an explanation for why my cycle was so irregular and that I was not alone, this condition is becoming more common than ever and I'm starting to wonder why ... more and more women in my generation are having fertility issues, hormonal imbalances and being diagnosed with conditions such as endometriosis and PCOS! I can't help but think there must be something else to blame , could it be the pill , food or other chemicals within our environments?
The more and more I started to open up to the world about my PCOS the more I grew to realise I didn't need to face this journey alone , asking for help is the best medicine without help this can become toxic and harmful leaving you to feel isolated and alone! No one wants that.
I started to do my own research into PCOS condition and the more I found out the more I started to second guess my diagnosis , what I was reading just did not add up. I barely had any of the symptoms which occur or effect women with p c o s . The only common link I had was the irregular periods and the cysts, I tried for so long to pretend and discard my diagnosis and get on with my life.
Life is hard when you start feeling not 100 percent , when your mood swings are just all over the place, I started to feel like my personality is changing I couldn't tell how I was even feeling my hormones were all over the show. I was angry, I was sad, I could swear at everyone or cry at the drop of a hat ! It started to occur to me that John was walking around me on egg shells as he didn't know what Hayley was going to become unleashed . This is not how I want to live my life, dealing with hormonal imbalances really takes its toll, if you ever see me in a bad mood this could be potentially why.
I was still feeling bloated, chronically fatigued , some days I felt exhausted mentally , physically and emotionally I felt like the laziest person in the world but I couldn't change it. Some days I would come home from work and all I could do was lay in bed and fall asleep it became such a habit that it began to rule my life. I knew I needed help and I needed it now. I will tell you this now don't let anything in life destroy you , whatever it may be it can knock you down. But choose to get up , choose to fight and carry on!
That's when the lovely people i spoke about in my previous posts come into play! I am forever grateful for all the people I have met along my journey, the saying goes people come into your life for a reason and one way or another I do believe this is true. My certain situation is not the journey that i would have chosen for myself but you have to see the positives within any bad situation and my positives are the people.
The people I have met along the way, and the kindness and support I receive from all the special people in my life that love me
"There is a story behind every person. There is a reason why they are the way they are. Do your best to consider this always, as it helps us to bring curiosity rather than judgement to our interactions"