On April the 4th 2017 I received a phone call from med lab! My results had come back from my bloods that where taken on Monday after seeing the specialist!
On the other end of the phone, a lady began to talk she said " Hayley it looks like your hcg levels are a little high which could mean that this is a sign that you are pregnant, we are going to need to test these levels Again with you to confirm " you are going to need to come in straight away
I was absolutely shocked I honestly didn't know how to react to this , I did not expect that i would be hearing these words come out of her mouth.
I will set the scene for you all .......
I am at work it's just an ordinary day looking after the children , John was in Christchurch working and living as he had for the whole of 2016 , he had been asked to work in cch for another month before coming home for good ! I took the phone call out the back in the staff room, in Complete shock and confusion and all the other emotions going on inside me I contained myself walked out to my colleagues and told them that I needed to go straight away to med lab and get some blood work done ! No one second guessed me or was suspicious as most of them all know my history !
I left so quickly out the door , phoning John as soon as I got to the car , I told him that I was on my way to get my bloods done as they think there could b a chance we where pregnant ! John didn't really know what to say , just that we should wait to hear back from the doctors ! He's the sensible and realistic one in our relationship , he keeps me grounded and boy do I need him a lot, this journey throws you curve balls all the bloody time and you need to stay positive and strong, at least I have John who can do that for the both of us!
As I wait to get my bloods taken again, for the second time this week I hand over my other arm as I already have a bruise appearing from the last blood test ! I never look when the needles go in , the lady asks if I'm okay and I say yes but really I'm super overwhelmed ! I'm facing all of this on my own, this is not how I pictured this to happen , my husband was so far away from me! And I really needed him by my side!
I went back to work feeling really uneasy , could I be pregnant, or is it my body being super fucked up ! can a blood test be wrong, so many thoughts were running through my mind, yet I had to remain calm and carry on with the day ahead.
I couldn't wait any longer I New they wouldn't have my blood results back for awhile so the next day I brought a pregnancy test , I was on the late shift at work finishing at 5 30 and I was meeting one of my best friends at the movies for a movie date at 6 ! There was no time in between to take this pregnancy test as it was a rush from Work to get to the movies on time!
Once arriving at the movies I could not contain myself I blurted out all of what had happened to me in the past 24 hours, my friend was super excited about the news and screamed with delight! I told her I had a test in my handbag as I wanted to confirm it for myself as I hadn't heard from the second round of bloods !
So I never thought or imagined that I would be taking a pregnancy test in the movie theater toilets before watching beauty and the beast ! Yes Crazy I know what a story to tell .
I couldn't wait till I got home the suspense was killing me ! I went to the Toilet peed on the stick ! Placed it inside my hand bag and went out to meet my friend ! Once in the movie I told my friend I had not checked the test as I was letting it process, I waiteda. few minutes ! A few minutes had passed and my friend was getting just as nervous as I was , she made me look at the test ..... after the amount of pregnancy tests I have taken in my life I thought this was going to read the same as it always does!
However for the first time in my life this test read 1- 2 weeks pregnant ! I dropped the test ! Started to cry.
My friend started to cry, she went to hug me ! We must of looked rather ridiculous in the movies acting in this way!
How on earth can I sit through this bloody movie after finding this out ! I chucked my phone to the bottom of my bag , I knew John would be ringing and messaging me asking for the latest updates , and he was ..
the whole drive home after the movie I was trying to think up cute little ways to announce to John that we where having a baby. Once I arrived home I was so excited to get on the phone , to see him to hear him and to tell him our amazing news ! The best way I came up with in such short notice was to face time him and show him the pregnancy stick so that he could see and read for himself 😀 I held up the pregnancy test !!
John was in complete shock just as I was!! But also very excited that we where finally pregnant...
However it was all not meant to be, not this time! so the journey continues. More to follow in the next few blog posts.
I have to learn to see the positive in every situation and not give up hope. After all good things come to those who wait! XX