October 22nd 2017 was the day I found out I was pregnant! Frankie you where just the tinniest little speck, i found out very early the doctor said a week or two pregnant so it was another long wait to see progress.
My draws stacked with pregnancy tests I decided to give it one last attempt for the year ! I had decided to take a break and wait for 2018 !
Never in a million years did I expect to see what I saw... the lines on the pregnancy test where barely visible, I showed my parents, I showed John and we all didn’t get our hopes up but I knew that I was not seeing things and the faint line had to of meant something! I repeated to John you can not get a fake positive..
it was a stressful next few days as I had to wait for bloods to check the hcg level and i continued to pee on the remaining pregnancy tests in my draws as the days went by the lines become stronger and by the end of the week it was clear as day that I finally had my two pink lines.
The weeks went very slow in the build up to see if you where here to stay ! I finally got to see you on the screen at six weeks 6 days, you where so tiny and small we had to wait a few more weeks to check again and at eight weeks we heard your heart beat clear as day 😀 that moment was un believable. The look on johns face will be a sight i will never forget it was like a weight of a thousand ton of bricks had been taken of him, we where both so thrilled and excited but also so very very scared to get to attached.
Frankie you have been in our lives since that very moment and now you are four months old , you are one of the happiest bubs I know , your constant smiles and your outbursts of happy delightful screams melt my heart everyday , it’s the best kind of sound .. I feel very blessed you had chosen me to be your mummy and I will always do my absolute best to be the best mum for you each and every day. You have taught me so much already, I can’t wait to be on this next journey with you as you embark on your learning adventures. I am so excited to watch you grow and discover the world around you.
As a parent to be I had all these theories of how it might look to have a baby and what I didn’t want to happen or to happen and then in reality you end up doing things you thought you never would just to make your day or your night bearable! I have quickly learnt never to judge anyone’s parenting skills as everyone of us is out there trying to navigate their way through parent hood! All babies are different and are all very individual. I new from day one Frankie was a very strong determined little. ( not so little ) girl she’s always been very active , inquisitive and lould, she loves people and being awake !! She is starting to interact and play with her toys now and loves a good chat just like her mumma! Frankie will continue to grow and change through her developmental leaps and I will be there to support her through them in every way ! Some nights are very very long and now some days are too but I have learnt to embrace it and run with her needs, if she needs me through the night I will be there, before I know it I will look back at the time I spent with her awake in the middle of the night and miss it!
Motherhood is an amazing journey in itself , it’s not as easy as you imagine it would be , I don’t know why I thought it would be hahaha .. it’s a lot of Fun though and I can’t believe I’m living it. I love my little family and it’s only the start I can not wait to watch all of Frankie’s firsts
So watch this space..
